Photographychallenge day 20 - in my bag

who cares what's in my bag??? I'm in Liverpool.. but yeah..this is how my backpack looks like..most of the time.. except the spoon.

photography Challenge day 19 - something I want

I really really really want to turn this good habit of 'eating clean' into a life style.  

But while we are at this subject of things I want..lets add some details to it shall we?..I want to start living the life I always imagined but somehow fear was keeping it out of reach, I want to allow myself to be inspired by little things and to find joy in all circumstances, I want to learn how to treat myself with respect after messing something up, to allow myself to make mistakes without being harsh, and learn to  take the good thing out of it.. I want to add a good habit every month, I want to challenge myself with every opportunity I get, I want to learn how to respect little kids :)

I want to learn  'Arial dance' ( soon baby, soon ). I want to be able to say Yes and No at the right moments.. wow..these are a lot of 'I want' s.. I reallly wish I wont waste my life for nothing and make 'something' out of  'everything'!

Photography Challenge day 18 - your shoes

Yes.. dooring my day..somehow I ended up wearing there for couple of hours..:) really comfy ..NOT

Photography Challenge day 17 - Technology

A word or two about technology from Isobel's point of view :)

Photography challenge day 16 - a good habit

Nourish your body. :) need I say more?

I think taking care and investing in your body is a very good habit.

Photography Challenge day 15- silhouette

Today was one of those 'no real people around' day. just me myself and I.  staring and admiring :)

dont feel sorry.. they are priceless to me:D

Photography challenge day 14 - eyes

try to see the world through someone else's eyes. you might open yours that way.

photography challenge day 13 - cannot live without

I cannot live without strong relationships :D I am a people person PUNCT.

Photography Challenge day 12 - sunset

it feels like I just woke up and brushed my teeth..but when I've looked  outside my window, the sun was already asleep..  in other words I've kinda miss the sunset..but here is a light which is about to set.  I guess?.

Photography Challenge day 11 - Something blue

A little bit of mystery never harmed anyone..(unless they've over-tried a bit to hard to solve it ) :D

Photography Challenge day 10 - childhood memory

For today's challenge I had something totally different in mind..but I didn't had time to go and 'hunt' for 'that moment'.

but while it was just Jake and I home alone for couple of hours, he was begging me to play 'farm' with him.. I was in no mood to pretend I am a talking horse so I was just trying to get away somehow..after a while I did accepted his invite. We were playing together and making up all kind of stories, I was actually having so much fun and laughter.. when it hit me.. I remembered when I was a little girl, probably slightly bigger then him, and I was begging my mother and father, even my sister, to come and play with me with my Barbie dolls. with no luck in making anyone play with me..I was laying everything out (for at least an hour until it was getting really boring ) by myself.. when I remembered that horrible feeling of 'no one wants to play with you' I was sooo sooo glad I did exept his invite and made him smile..and even myself.. now.. I have someone who wants to play with me..:) and I can be that person for him as well.:) 

                 

Photography Challenge day 9 - Someone you love

If I would say 'everybody', sadly it would be a lie.. If I would say 'somebody' it would be a lie as well.

Photography Challenge - day 8 routine

This is the 'spot' that all the 'magic' happens and all the right decisions are made .:D

Photography challenge day 7 - changes to come

I've grown strong roots in the last two years of wilderness..now its time for them to bloom. 

Building with vision!

Photography challenge day 6 - obsession

Its not the tree itself, but the mystery within it.
 not forest, but the atmosphere it exudes
not only the view, but the smell through which you travel  to unknown worlds.

yes, I do live in my own Narnia :) and I'm one of the many Queens.

Nature will always hunt me.. and I'm enjoying every minute of it.

Photography challenge day 5 - after dark

First time I've had a look at the title for today's challenge I knew from the way it says 'AFTER dark' that is not about doing a picture at night. I google the meaning of 'after dark and this is what I've got.. 

When I saw what it says I started laughing and said to myself there is no way I'm doing this and specially NOT public!  I've decided I'm going to go out after 9..10pm and just take a photograph of Henley at night, it is astonishing anyway!  But after that thought I started to feel like I'm cheating and  running away from this challenge.  I went into the bathroom, I toke a good look in the mirror, stared deeply into my eyes and said to myself "Watch me accept the challenge and turn it into something amazing!!!"

I scratched my brains for couple of hour, searching for ideas. And after a while something came into my mind!  My heart has this pain and grief when it come to slavery and specially about  sexual abuse and specially on young girl!!  Whenever I think about it or hear something about it my face turns red and I feel like I'm boiling with a furry I can hardly control it. 

Yes!! This is it! This is a perfect opportunity to protest again it and ask other people to join me and pray about it!! 

So I've asked my beloved Genius girl to help me with this. She was brilliant and so excited to help me out! 


This is it:

Lift up a prayer for all the girls who are being sold as a sexual slave right now,  you read this. 

Photography challenge day 4 - 'something green'

Everyday I have until noon to do my daily photograph challenge.  My morning was so busy today, I couldn't get out of the house for even 10 minutes! That was a big challenge for my 'perfectionist spirit'. I wanted to go out and find something really good!!! I'm always after the best.. And today I couldn't!  I got really cross when I saw I have 30 min to do something, knowing that 'something' will probably be crap but that was my only choice.  Then I remembered it's called challenge for a reason, so I got over it and challenge myself to put that "everything has to be perfect" attitude aside  and went to make my daily regular smoothie.  Boom, there you go! Spirulina smoothie- something green. Let's try. I took my smoothie, went in the living room, placed it on the table took a shoot, two, three.. Sat down and enjoyed my yummi drink! Ah.. I felt amazing realizing it doesn't always have to go according to your plan.

anyways, this is it:

Photography challenge day 3 - clouds

                 Today, ah..today, my favourite day of the week. Wednesday! 

Wednesdays are my 'creativity day', everything I do has to be done with a touch of creativity. I thought

"clouds" was quite a boring subject, so being on a Wednesday was just what it needed!

the weather was like a summer day on a beach, really hot and sunny, giving you that feeling of blindness. 

So I've decided..I'm going to pack my treasures, ( notebooks, book, camera ), take a blanket and go on the river side up the hill to..see what will happen. Somewhere along the way, I just got lost into this amazing yellow field which made me want to throw my shoes off and dive in!!..it didn't take more then 10 seconds and I was on my way.. accepting the challenge.  Ah.. nothing can recreate that feeling like a fresh 'almost summer' grass under your barefoot. I satisfied my childhood memories and I've started to take my first shoots.  something always made me stop..and just lay down. surrounded by tiny yellow flowers mixed up with green grass..it tocked me straight back when I was a kid, playing hid and go seek , trying to hide myself in the grass. I giggled a bit, because of all the funny crazy memories that moment brought back to me. Something started to tickle me on my back and it brought me back to reality..ah s.. I completely  forgot about those annoying insects.    Stand up..do the 'Jack Sparrow' shaky dance and get back to work.

many things happened in that hour and a bit, but would be no point of telling you all..

I should just share some pictures with you would be better. 

I do have one that I have chosen for today's theme. but I'm going to share with you more as well.

Today's picture:

- This was "IT" for me.. -

I love how the cloud are bringing to life this old church, make it look like a cosy living Castle. 

a part of the yellow 'grass'

"looks like the sky is about to open"

 (taken while laying down)

 'making my own clouds'

getting closer

'run forest, run'

 'hide and seek'

'freeeeeedooomnnn'

I had an amazing productive and creative day! and this was just 4% of my day.

PS: I dare you to start this challenge. I do love calling it adventure in stead. you will be amazed by the things you will do different in your day,  the things you learn, the things you will discover, new things to fall in love with. and you will always have something to look forward to in the next day. knowing you will create something that will make you fall in love with it forever!

Photography challenge .day 2 - "what you wore"

This was a fun challenge!
at first, when I read that in the morning  "what you wore"..I thought to myself, well I hope they are not talking about my PJ, cause in that case that would be big a problem. :))  ( I can see a big big smile coming together on my closest friends faces ).  then..I've decided to choose just one piece of clothing and my beloved "be-mine-forever" hat.  so far so good!.. but what next?.. to take the photograph in the house would be to easy, and them my favourite shop (to stop and stare ) comes to mine..:D ah.. I so badly want move in (  I make the same joke everything I go there, they might think I'm crazy. ) It was really Interesting for me to go in, start unpacking and start hanging things everywhere to see where is the perfect place for it,while people coming  in and out looking at you like "is she for sale or she is really doing something?" I'm just kidding, but they where looking funny at me for sure. You don't see everyday a random girl going into a shop, hanging her shirt and start taking pictures..right?  ah. I had a blast!

ok.. so there you go, I took my fisrt shoot, I have the right picture, what now? shall I go home?

whaaaaaat?? now?when I just started to have fun? no way..lets go to my favourite book shop.. its just around the corner anyways.

yeap.. there you go.. my too favoutite things.. a HAT and a BOOK.. ah.. the pleasure..

and tidiness..did I mention it? 

Photography Challenge day 1- self portrait

I always wanted to do this 30 days photography challenge but always found a reason not to.. well today is the day that  I've decided that it would be a good day to take that challenge and do it!

and day one had to be a self-portrait - lets make me ugly shall we?..YES

"will I know myself without my faces"

in other words: would I recognise myself without the price-tags.

in other other words.:

the "thing" i have on my face represents the imagine I formed about myself, based on my circumstances, on what people say about me, on what my parents said about me, on what I said about me..and so on.

but if I would put all that aside.. would I know MYSELF if one day I would stand face to face with the real me? 

this one is more of a.."beauty from ashes" 

"You make beautiful things out of dust"

( I know I know.." what beauty?" right?? :)) well.. I did wash my face after no worries)

Dear Lover of my Heart..

My heart only beats because of you.  I cannot control that. It's like she answers to a shout only she can hear.

Sometimes, when you whisper something so gently to her, she starts racing violently  looking for a way to get out of me and shout that out for all to hear ( especially to my brain ).  It Your way of getting my heart all excited for some reason. I cannot control that either. 

And sometimes she get so quiet, it feels like she is not even there..but then  I think to myself- she is probably having a rest in the place that she loves to find shelter often.. called 'shadow of Your wings'..

My body gets so jealous of my heart.. Because she can get so close to You.. Your whispers.. Your shadow.. The relationship that you two secretly have is such a mystery to my mind.. Occasionally I send my thoughts to search for that place and find my heart abiding in You.. But my mind is to limited to take the journey. 

 Many are the times my heart tried to tell my mind the deep treasures You reveal to her in your secret place, but really rarely my brain can understand the wonders. 

If I could only squeeze inside myself, like a snail does, and go beyond all I am and explore my hear, my soul, that amazing hiding place they share with You. 

If I could only bring that garden out.. To rejoice in it, to build, to live in it forever. In the shadow of your wings! 

My heart loves you more then my brain and words could tell.. 

PS: if only my heart could have a mouth.😊